Marathon Doubts

I'm such a terrible blogger. I haven't posted anything in so long, but I read everyone else's every day! It seems like I always blog when I get to feeling blue..not good for those of you who do read this! :/

 I think I told you that I registered for the Savannah, GA Rock N Roll Marathon on November 5, didn't I? Well, I'm 3 weeks into training (13 weeks from race day), and I cannot find the motivation/determination/gumption to train! What is wrong with me? Why can't I be a good runner? My friend Leah loooves to run, and she's the reason I started running races, why can't I looove it like her? I think I just want a relaxed workout schedule instead of feeling like I HAVE to go for a run. What if I want to go to cycling 2 times in a week? I want to be able to have that, and if I don't want to workout one day I don't want to feel like I'm falling behind on training. Now I know I've paid money for this race, and I have booked a hotel for that weekend, so I'm hoping I'll be able to change from the full marathon to the half. That's such a great distance for me. I really like it, and I don't feel overwhelmed with training. But, then there's the pride that comes in, and I know a few people who are running the half, and I don't want to do the same as them...I want to do MORE! I'm awful. I'll keep you posted on what happens...or at least I'll try. :)